"Flurry"

Here it is 2 am. I'm wide awake. I went to bed at 10 and woke up at 12:15. I pretty much have half of my sleep in.

I have things I want to do around the apt and I keep putting them off, that is part of why I can't sleep. I hate that I'm so lazy.

I bid on a job at work and I am awaiting a phone call to see if I even get an interview. I desprately need a change.

I always think too much and create scenerios in my head that are keeping me from sleeping.

I don't remember any dreams and that bothers me.

There is one thing that helps me to get to bed though, Flurry.

Flurry is a stuffed white mouse. He was won for me in one of those claw machines back in January. It gives me something to hold onto when I'm trying to fall asleep, and if I'm not bear hugging him, he is lying in the empty space that fills the other side of my bed. It's good to wake up and look over and see "someone" there.

He helps me to sleep, just like a little kid.

I probably wouldn't sleep at all without him.