Sadness........
Today my heart is sad :(
If you know me, you know that when I give myself, I give my whole self. If I like you, I will try to hide it. If you are important to me, I will want to share you with everyone I know. If I love you, I will cry for you and with you. If you hurt me, you will scar me forever. If you lie to me, I will never let you forget it.
But....
If you love me back, it will be the most rewarding feeling in the whole world. I am not a cheater, a junkie, or an alcoholic. I am not a liar, though I have been known to mis represent the truth from time to time. I'm a lover, not a fighter, though I know how to put up a fight. I wear my heart on my sleeve. When I'm afraid of losing something, I hold on even tighter.
I'm decent and when I say something that comes from the heart, I mean it and I will back it up with all that I am. On the other hand, I can't put up with something that I don't believe in. I can't compromise my beliefs.
I have done something that I might regret. I sit here typing this with that knot in my stomach and that swelling in my chest. On the verge of wanting to cry, yet no reason to.
I don't ask for much. Just to be loved, appreciated and respected. I don't need to be #1, I just need to be a number.
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Update:
The thing that I did that I might regret. I still may one day, but it doesn't look like anytime soon. : ) I'm happy again.
P.S. Thanks Hyde for the pep talk late last night
If you know me, you know that when I give myself, I give my whole self. If I like you, I will try to hide it. If you are important to me, I will want to share you with everyone I know. If I love you, I will cry for you and with you. If you hurt me, you will scar me forever. If you lie to me, I will never let you forget it.
But....
If you love me back, it will be the most rewarding feeling in the whole world. I am not a cheater, a junkie, or an alcoholic. I am not a liar, though I have been known to mis represent the truth from time to time. I'm a lover, not a fighter, though I know how to put up a fight. I wear my heart on my sleeve. When I'm afraid of losing something, I hold on even tighter.
I'm decent and when I say something that comes from the heart, I mean it and I will back it up with all that I am. On the other hand, I can't put up with something that I don't believe in. I can't compromise my beliefs.
I have done something that I might regret. I sit here typing this with that knot in my stomach and that swelling in my chest. On the verge of wanting to cry, yet no reason to.
I don't ask for much. Just to be loved, appreciated and respected. I don't need to be #1, I just need to be a number.
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Update:
The thing that I did that I might regret. I still may one day, but it doesn't look like anytime soon. : ) I'm happy again.
P.S. Thanks Hyde for the pep talk late last night
posted by sunshine at 8:36 AM
4 Comments:
I am sorry you are feeling sad. *sends a loving hug* I know it may not count for much, since we aren't, you know, bosom friends, or anything, ut you've definately got a number in my book.
I hope things get better.
Love-AG
Sunshine Rocks!
Whooo Sunshine!
Hope that makes you feel better!
Your an awsome girl and you should never be sad. You have more love to give than anyone in the world. I'm glad your happy again. I know what it is to be close to your heart and its the greatest feeling in the world. I'm so happy to have you as my friend. I always come to you when i need comfort or support or understanding or just someone to talk to. You have an amazing personality and you do really give your whole self to those close to you. That's what makes you special. You are so outgoing and you put others before yourself. Be happy!!!! Your my #1 girl. When your sad im sad so don't let things get to you or dwell on things too much. Have some Ben and Jerry's. MMMMMmmmmmmmm
I'm glad you're happy again! Call me anytime. You have been a great friend to me when I've needed to talk.
As for possible regrets-- I think that you should never regret asserting your own requirements and boundaries. You know who you are and you're strong. Anyone who loves you in the right way will make the right choice.
:)
h
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