Ok Ok

Thanks for the vote of confidence. I wasnt' trying to get you all to confess your love for me, but it worked :)

This weekend was hectic as all are laterly. I barely spend any time doing what I want to anymore. Yesterday, after work, I came home and was a couch potato for a few hours, napped, showered and went to dinner. Was home at a decent hour and asleep shortly after.

My life feels very mundane lately. I'm always in a funk. I'm making it that way for myself though. I have things in relatively decent order, my life isn't that bad, or tough. Yet, I make myself think it is. I have a hard time allowing myself happiness. I say I'm happy, but I don't know if I really truly am. Sometimes I sit and stare into a mirror and talk to myself, what starts out as a pep talk turns into me crying. Crying because I have it so good, yet no one seems to recognize it. I've achieved a lot with little help. I have no college education, yet I'm doing better than most people my age, better than some older than me. I live on my own and am raising a daughter ( how well is yet to be determined ).

I don't really show a lot of my personality on this blog. I try to keep myself closed off, but in doing that, none of you can get a sense of who I really am. That's fine with me. Blogging has become a chore of late, but I use it as an outlet. When I feel like no one is listening, there is you, my audience. Usually supportive, always adoring.

It might be a time for a change soon. Time will tell.

Lesson Learned.....Love with your whole heart. Don't wait until tomorrow, what if it never comes?