Here we go...one more

I asked Mmmmm to do a mememe for me, and so he did, and here it is.

1. You have pretty eyes and a great smile.
2. Happy Birthday
3. Pineapple Jelly
4. "Did you bite something hard?"
5. same answer as you
6. Bambi
7. Why didn't we ever get drunk together?

1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jelly to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.

Why didn't we ever get drunk together?

Excellent question, you might quite possible be the only one of my guys friends I never have drank with. We did attempt it that one night w/ so co and blues. I guess we never went out at night into a setting where alcohol was plentiful. I will put it down on my to-do list.

I thought you would never ask....

Mmmmmm

1. You sleep w/ TLC. and love ice cream as much as me.
2. "Drop it like it's hot"
3. Cherry
4. "Petrified" "Go with the flow" " Do you know what I mean?"
5. "Do you want to hear a joke?"
6. Leopard
7. Why did you chose me to open up to?

Thanks again Mmmmm for being there for me last night when I needed you. I'm sorry that you had to be the one to hear those things. I know that we have been through a lot and you didn't want to hear some of those things, but I needed you, and you were there for me. Thank you. Please know that I am here for you too and if you ever need to bounce things off of me or need a womans point of view.

*Drumroll*

The answers:

Charby

1. You like butterflies and Ben & Jerry's ice cream
2. G N'R - Patience
3. Orange
4. "Nigel hit me in the face"
5. I looked into you after you commented on Flashs' site
6. Goose
7. How tall are you?

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Hyde

1. You hold the record for most words in a blog entry
2. Alanis - Everything
3. Blue Raspberry
4. "Lesson Learned"
5. Clearest was spotting you in Cheers
6. Chameleon
7. Why did you choose history as your major?

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Flash

1. One memory of you will always make me smile ;)
2. Purple Rain - Song
3. Who needs Jelly?
4. Same answer you said for me!!!!!
5. Not the first or the clearest, but when you emailed me your picture.
6. Kangaroo
7. If you knew then what you know now, what would you do differently?

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Spins

1. You like tarot cards
2. Gypsy Women
3. Strawberry
4. "Is there going to be an analysis on who we are based on our shower curtains?"
5. Commenting on Flash's blog
6. Dove
7. At your funeral, what song would you like played over the loudspeaker?

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Sorry it took so long. I've been extremely busy lately. I promise to be a better blogger from now on.

Just had to post these....

1. Do not walk behind me, for I may not lead. Do not walk ahead of me, for I
may not follow. Do not walk beside me either. Just pretty much leave me the
hell alone.

2. It's always darkest before dawn. So if you're going to steal your
neighbor's newspaper, that's the time to do it.

3. Sex is like air -- it's not important unless you aren't getting any.

4. No one is listening until you fart.

5. If you think nobody cares if you're alive, try missing a couple of car
payments.

6. Before you criticize someone, you should walk a mile in their shoes. That
way, when you criticize them, you're a mile away, and you have their shoes.

7. If at first you don't succeed, skydiving is not for you.

8. Give a man a fish, and he will eat for a day. Teach him how to fish, and
he will sit in a boat and drink beer all day.

9. If you lend someone $20 and never see that person again, it was worth it.


10. Don't worry--It only seems kinky the first time.

11. Good judgment comes from bad experience, and a lot of that comes from
bad judgment.

12. There are two theories about arguing with women. Neither one works.

13. Experience is something you don't get until just after you need it.

14. Never, under any circumstances, take a sleeping pill and a laxative on
the same night .

Doing as I was told....

Over at Flash's place he had a little game of sorts going on... I asked to be a part of it, here are the rules, here are the answers...

Leave your name and
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jelly to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.

If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST. It is written.

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Sunshine:
1. You are a constant in my world.
2. Nine inch nails - Closer
3. Blackcurrent - For the purpleness of it.
4. "Never done nothing like that before!!!" (or since!)
5. Finding your blog & leaving a comment about some bastard stealing the life we should have had.
6. A lioness
7. Given how crap I've become at keeping up our private communications, if I materialized at your front door now, what would be the first thing you'd do: Give me a slap or drag me off to the bedroom?

This has given me the cutest grin across my lips...I knew what most of the answers would be, I was curious to see the question.

Oh how I miss your presense.

Content....

At peace for today.

I have a clearer conscience. I had a pretty great weekend, overall. I spent it with newer friends, and my two oldest friends. I laughed, I cried, I spilled a soda down me, and I made an ass out of myself in public all in the name of fun.

I did nothing of value on Saturday, I slept until 3:30 pm. That is not like me at all. Granted, I didn't sleep consectively until 3:30, but still, I didn't shower until 5:30 pm. Then I grocery shopped. Hung out for a bit, and had an early night in bed. Had to get up at 8 am on Sunday to go to an amusement park, with my daughter, my best friend, and her son. It was a long day in the sun, but a lot of fun. Definatly worth it. Best part...it only cost me $11 for the day and I didn't have to drive. Perfect.

So that brings me to today, where I am getting little accomplished at work, and I'm only hurting myself, cause it means I will have to end up working weekends, but oh well, I'll deal with that when the time comes.

My spirits are up for today, for I'm trying not to think of the things that bring me down. I have a very busy week, both inside and outside of work. It should make the week fly by. I hope anyway.

Question?

Question?

What if your best friend asks you to be her maid of honor in her wedding, but you hate her fiance, and dis approve of the whole event.

1. Do you suck it up and go and keep your mouth quiet, for the sake of your best friend.

2. Do you tell her you won't be in the wedding but you will attend.

3. Do you tell her your true opinions of the scumbag she is about to marry, and you don't even want to witness such an event.

Well, what would you do?

Coinsidences?!?!

What constitutes a coincidence? Or do you call it fate? Or is it just ironic?

In particular instances, I think the 3 might be all intertwined.

What do you think?

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I've felt a bit down lately. I really have no real reason to. I need to talk to a few people and clear the air.

I guess I'm just not content with being happy. I have my life pretty well in order. True I live paycheck to paycheck, yet I do have a little spending money.

I have friends and family who care about me.

Perhaps I just need a down day, an alone day. I'm planning on spending this Saturday night home alone. That's the plan, yet I have this nagging suspicion, I won't settle for that. I NEED to just stay home and watch old movies and eat popcorn and have a light cocktail. I need to stay off the phone and away from the computer.

Wish me luck. Sorry I've been a bummer lately....just feeling in a funk.

I need to tell a few people in my life a few of the things that are bothering me, perhaps when I get that off my mind I will feel better.

Double post day~

Ok, I have been neglecting this blog as of late. I have no real reason other than I just feel unsettled here.

I don't want to talk about my personal life, because it's just that. Personal.

I am not overly happy nor overly sad. I keep reading my usual friends blogs and I find myself getting pissy when I read them. It's so bizarre to be that I can feel these peoples emotions through a computer screen. When you are sad, I'm sad, when you are happy, I tend to be happier.

It's been a little over a year ago that I had my first regular commenter. Flash. Obviously if you read my blog then you are a reader of his as well. He seems to be in anguish lately. Thus, that might be why I'm in anguish too. Do not fell guilty Flash for it's not your fault.

I will not abandon this blog, but I need to sit back and reflect what it is I'm doing here, in blogland. I don't feel like I belong anymore. I don't want to be emotionally run by what other people say and do. I want to have control over my own emotions and my own thoughts. I have been happy and sad and pissed off and hurt, loved, been loved, cheated with, cheated on. Granted these things were all done to or by one of you in blog land. I know those things have happened to me too, but I chose not to blog about them.

The Question Game...

Finally, I'm answering the question I asked for. Sorry it has taken me so long...

1. Q: A hippo is in a fight with a lion, who is your money on?

A: My money is on the hippo...My rational...I figure the hippo can retreat to the water, and being that the lion is part of the cat family, it would cowar at the fact of it being water, thus allowing the hippo to be victorious, by forfeit.

2. Q: Imagine the sky, grass and sea can be any colour other than what they are already. What colours do you pick and why?

A: Obviously the sky and sea will be variations of the same color as the sea reflects the sky in it...I would choose to see a purplish hue, one that is almost translucent. As the sun shines bright it would be a pale purple, lavender, with tints of silver shimmering in it...when the clouds roll in it would be a darker purple murky almost, but still able to let the light in. The Grass would be the colors of the rainbow, minus green. I would let my lawn grow a little bit as to watch it do the wave as the wind blows through it. Perhaps I would get sick of the multi color lawn after a week then I would change it to white. Just to brighten things up a bit.

3. Q: When are you coming to visit? Huh? Huh? Huh?

A: I don't know. I have my passport, I have the money...I don't have the vacation time until January 1st. I don't have a sitter for my kid. I would like to have company on such a trip as coming to England. I hope in 2006 sometime. No guarentees. : (

4. Q: If you could change your name what would you choose it to become?

A: Grace Fall - That is the latest name, I came up with it about 2 weeks ago. I say that because I am "graceful". I think it suits me to a T. I have a tendancey to be a clutz and when you say Grace Fall fast it sounds like graceful. Very childish but so true. If you know me personally, you know this to be true.

5. Q: Would you rather live without your legs or arms?

A: Not even a question...take my legs. I could not bare the thought of never being able to feel things again, with the sense of touch and the sensation only your fingertips can bring. Your fingertips are very sensative and not being able to hold my daughter and touch her skin...well I could w/ my toes, but that would be gross.

Anyway....thanks for the questions Charbs, sorry it took me so long to answer. If anyone else wants to ask me so questions and doesn't mind waiting 2 or 3 days for answers, feel free to ask me.

I'm such a slacker....

The List.

1. Byran Adams - "Run to you"....I have been playing this at least 2 to three times a week. If you listen to the words line for line, it's about a guy who is in love with his woman, yet has a woman on the side who fulfills all of his needs. It reminds me of someone in my life....me being "the other woman" Meh.

2. Bryan Adams - "Summer of 69"....I listen to this song in conjunction with the above listed song. They are on my greatest hits CD. This song is kinda a " our song " kind of thing...Plus face it, it's kick ass.

3. NIN - The entire Pretty Little Hate Machine - I'm gearing myself up to the upcoming concert I am going to.

4. Pearl Jam - " Black ".....I am attaching the lyrics. I merely love this song....it reminds me of my first love....the last few verses were exactly how I felt when he broke my heart.

Hey...oooh...
Sheets of empty canvas, untouched sheets of clay
Were laid spread out before me as her body once did
All five horizons revolved around her soul
As the earth to the sun
Now the air I tasted and breathed has taken a turn
Ooh, and all I taught her was everything
Ooh, I know she gave me all that she wore
And now my bitter hands chafe beneath the clouds
Of what was everything?
Oh, the pictures have all been washed in black, tattooed everything...

I take a walk outside
I’m surrounded by some kids at play
I can feel their laughter, so why do I sear
Oh, and twisted thoughts that spin round my head
I’m spinning, oh, I’m spinning
How quick the sun can, drop away
And now my bitter hands cradle broken glass
Of what was everything (note the lack of question mark)
All the pictures have all been washed in black, tattooed everything...
All the love gone bad turned my world to black
Tattooed all I see, all that I am, all I’ll ever be...yeah...

Uh huh...uh huh...ooh...
I know someday you’ll have a beautiful life, I know you’ll be a star
In somebody else’s sky, but why
Why, why can’t it be, why can’t it be mine

5. Guns N' Roses - " Sweet Child O' Mine " ..... This is my roots...I play this song weekly too...it is the first song that was truly my favorite title. It reminds me of my youth and everytime I feel lost or out of place in this world, I play that and I feel happy and remember who I am and where I come from.

Not a very diverse list, but this is where I am in my life right now. Music is a window into the soul and the heart and I have just cracked the window to you.